now, what's this all about...?

this is a blog i started when we lived in philadelphia in 2014 to chronicle my feelings and experiences as a young woman with bipolar disorder.

it's not widely known to most people that this is a condition i struggle with mostly because i don't want it to be a "thing".
i don't want people to think "caity" and think "mentally ill". or think "mentally ill" and then think "oh, caity!"

so i mostly just keep it under wraps. and if i do have any conversations about mental health with people i usually just share that i suffered severe PPD after my kids (which is entirely true), since, for whatever reason, that is much more socially acceptable and easier to stomach for most people.

as of right now (8.6.18) there are not any recent posts. the most recent ones are from the first year following oliver's birth. i have gone back and read some of them and there are a few that give some context and background regarding the nature of the illness and my diagnosis.
you can tell by the writing style the state i was in while writing them, which is interesting.

anyway. if you've found your way here, this is just a heads up. sometimes in my actual blog, i reference my health vaguely and it may seem unclear as to what i'm talking about. this is what i'm talking about.

so there ya go. you've learned something new about me! don't make it weird.